STANDUP TO ANXIETY
We all have milestones in our lives, it's the prevalent thing that we always find it feels like in every moment we are dealing with our milestones or conditions or situations. We have so many phases in our lives but one big one we are still dealing or dealt with. Everyone has that one big transformation or juncture that we all go through or going through. I know it's quite hard and heavy but we anyhow make it through. We, people, know it's a phase but being in that phase sucks don't know how to deal with or face that situation. Being in a heavy situation, lots of mixed emotions, and millions of thoughts lead to overthinking and anxiety,and sometimes depression . I am a 21-year-old person who is dealing with my anxiety and panic disorders since the age when I didn't know what this situation called. I was in my sixth or seventh grade when I had my first anxiety attack or was in an anxious state. I was so weak, fragile, sick and despondent. I didn't go to school for at least six months and I'd tried almost every doctor and did almost every medical test but still, nothing happened. I and my family never thought of going to a psychiatrist and thought of having any mental illness. Grown in an Indian family, mothers have their superstitions for sake of their children and we did that too but in the end, it was a superstition. just imagine a 13-year-old girl dealing with highly anxious emotions didn't know what to do or where to go. Its the most difficult phase that I face and came out of it.
I was fine after taking some HYPERACIDITY medication which was quite not the solution to my mental illness and I still had no idea what was mental illness. It again came up when I was at my most important or turning point which was my 12th grade. I accept that it was my fault for not doing any study or not giving much attention to my career-making turn and maybe because of that I again get anxiety attacks and my mother thought at that time it was a case of depression and tension. I went to a psychiatrist where I finally got to know abt my mental illness. you know in India, people still think that going to a psychiatrist indicates that a person is crazy or insane but never think that it is a serious illness that anyone at any age can suffer through this.My medication had started and I used to sleep at 9 pm and wake up at 10 am. I used to spend half of my day sleeping and couldn't able to do any work or study I was always in my zone and I don't know how to explain that zone or feeling. you guys know how that feeling eats you and make you weak. Taking medication for MENTAL ILLNESS was my first step toward my recovery. But it is quite hard to deal with whenever you have a panic attack or anxiety attack you are out of control you go deep in thinking and do not know how to get out of it you have these symptoms like a tickling or prickling sensation on your palms, pain in the stomach, sweating, weakness, and so on, these all happen at once and don't know how to control it and we freaked out. There's one of my situations where I screamed a hell out of me in a hospital and freaked everyone out and you know I saw my dad crying and he didn't know what to do and where to take me and cure me. But my mom was the strongest in that situation. She always believes that I will be fine and get out of it.
Taking medicine or therapy doesn't cure you, it helps you to overcome and control your hyper emotions or overthinking which I think every person should do who is going through this, and trust me I am dealing with it for almost 1o year now and treatment does help you a lot. MEDITATION plays a very important role in our life it tells us how to control our emotions and make ourselves more mature and gives clarity. In the beginning, we all feel frustrated but it's the process that we have to trust and go on. I know how hard it is, how powerful these emotions get, and feel heavy but everyone can face and get out of it. It is okay to get help, talk or share things, we do not have to feel inferior, we are humans with emotions, and it's our job to express them. No one judges you for that. Your family, friends, and doctors will always help you. YOU CAN DO IT, this is true, anyone can ,just believe in yourselves.
This is my story and I know you also have your own story of standup to anxiety so just share it with me, if you guys want to know more about it and want to ask questions then I am here.
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